January 5, 2008

Just a poem I found today that I thought I would share.

The Extra Kiss
By Susan Reardon

 to L and P,
the birthparents of my beautiful daughter 
 

Sitting here holding this child
My thoughts, again, travel to you
The ones who gave us our dream
And love this sweet child too
I wonder how you are doing
Is time really healing your pain?
Still at peace with your decision?
Or are you now going insane?
I wish I could do something
To help comfort in some way
To help lead to your healing
Or know the words to say.
Instead I will hold her close
And give her an extra kiss
From two beautiful people
And for the moments they will miss. 

December 15, 2007

My Miracle

When they placed you in my arms and I looked into your face,
I felt our hearts melt into one ~ a miracle took place.
My prayer was finally answered, though delayed, 'twas not denied ~
the pain of love unanswered, in a moment's time subsides.
God's plan seemed hard to understand.
The circle's now complete.
He placed the heavens in my arms, so precious and so sweet.
Though you grew within another, my soul and yours were one.
We united in God's loving heart before life had begun.
I received a priceless treasure ~
this adopted child I love.....
a gift of joy and happiness to me from God above.

- Author Unknown -

September 29, 2007

Today was a very sad day for our family as our beloved cat, Felix, had to be euthanized. 

Felix was a sweet cat, although always a bit scared of people.  When John and I first met I had moved recently to a new apt that did not allow pets.  Prior to moving I had 2 cats that I had given to friends because of the new living arrangement.  Well about a month into living in the new apt I found out some of my neighbors had cats. 

So when John and I started living together we had talked about getting a pet.  One night when I came home from school he had a surprise waiting for me - Felix.  He was this beautiful, regal looking cat who was absolutely terrified to be with us.  He had been rescued from the mean Manhattan streets by our friend who is a vet. 

The first few months we never saw Felix - we only knew he lived in the apt because every day the food was gone.  Otherwise we would have never known he was there.  John was fed up with having a pet that we never saw and was ready to trap him and give him back.  Instead I went into our bedroom and laid down on the floor and talked to him under the bed.  I guess you could say we came to an understanding.  The next night while we sat on the couch we saw a black streak run through the room - and a few minutes later poke his nose around the corner.  Gradually he started coming around and within a few months we were able to touch him for the first time.

We had Felix for about 8 years and he was over a year old when we brought him home.  He was never overly affectionate and I was really the only one who he would ever come to - although it was always on his terms.  Most mornings I would wake up to him nuzzling my head with his and cuddling until I got up for work.  He would do the same for 10 minutes or so before bed - otherwise he was a loner.

Felix was always a big cat - he wasnt neutered until after he was a year so he had a little bit of tomcat in him.  Over the years his weight caused some issues and our last visit to the doctor brought us the news that in addition to a UTI he had arthrisis in his spine. Ultimately his quality of life, as well as that of our other pets and our home caused us to make this decision and its one I hope never to have to make again. 

We placed him in our backyard under a nice big tree where he will always be close to our hearts.


September 12, 2007

We were crossing out of Ohio into Indiana - the final leg of our 15 hour journey to meet our son!!   I have been so nostalgic the last few days.  I cannot believe that a year has come and gone since that day and can't remember what my life was like before he joined our family forever.

We love you Christopher - you are the light of our lives!!!